Today was my last day of work at a job that I never intended to become attached with the people or the position. I thought it was just to be a transitional position until God directed me further down the path that He intended for me to walk. While in this position, I went through many changes, financially, positionally, socially, even geographically; some of the changes harder than others but I came through. The especially difficult times would some times lead me to believe that I was not in the will of God or that I had done something knowingly or unknowingly that angered God so he was some how punishing me. While in the midst of the financial changes I learned how to pray and just wait. I learned that the most important things are not purchased by money. I also learn to draw closer to those who were experiencing the same for strength.
While going through changes positionally, being promoted, I learned that there is more value in me and what God has allowed me to learn and attain than I had ascribed to myself. I learned to see myself through eyes that valued what I could bring to the table.
The changes socially truly tried to throw me for a loop. I attempted to be in a relationship with someone who was very active socially; clubbing, drinking, dancing, partying, having sex with whomever whenever (the person was; not me). There were even some social issues at my job that caused there to be some tension between myself and my co-workers. I felt like the outcast and the unwanted. Inadvertently, I stopped looking for the approval of others. I found out that those things did not and don't currently make me happy. I also found out that I cant really be in a close relationship with someone, friendship or otherwise, that does not share a similar interest and passion for living a life that is pleasing to God.
After being evicted from my apartment and having to live with someone again was a "hard place" and I felt like, again, I was being punished or that God was trying to teach me a lesson. But in the midst, I learned about the timing of God. If I had still been attached to a lease, I would not have been ready to accept my new position in NC. I would not have even been pressed to look because I wasn't uncomfortable enough yet. I was uncomfortable but not uncomfortable enough to begin to really press in, seek God, and "beat the pavement".
As the kids and the staff said Goodbye to me, I felt a sense of peace that comes from knowing that I, through God, have done a good work, and have left a good impression on the lives that I came in contact with. Although there were some not so good days, the love, endearing love, outweighed them all in those last moments......! There's nothing like endearing love!
While going through changes positionally, being promoted, I learned that there is more value in me and what God has allowed me to learn and attain than I had ascribed to myself. I learned to see myself through eyes that valued what I could bring to the table.
The changes socially truly tried to throw me for a loop. I attempted to be in a relationship with someone who was very active socially; clubbing, drinking, dancing, partying, having sex with whomever whenever (the person was; not me). There were even some social issues at my job that caused there to be some tension between myself and my co-workers. I felt like the outcast and the unwanted. Inadvertently, I stopped looking for the approval of others. I found out that those things did not and don't currently make me happy. I also found out that I cant really be in a close relationship with someone, friendship or otherwise, that does not share a similar interest and passion for living a life that is pleasing to God.
After being evicted from my apartment and having to live with someone again was a "hard place" and I felt like, again, I was being punished or that God was trying to teach me a lesson. But in the midst, I learned about the timing of God. If I had still been attached to a lease, I would not have been ready to accept my new position in NC. I would not have even been pressed to look because I wasn't uncomfortable enough yet. I was uncomfortable but not uncomfortable enough to begin to really press in, seek God, and "beat the pavement".
As the kids and the staff said Goodbye to me, I felt a sense of peace that comes from knowing that I, through God, have done a good work, and have left a good impression on the lives that I came in contact with. Although there were some not so good days, the love, endearing love, outweighed them all in those last moments......! There's nothing like endearing love!
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