Growing: Coming Into Myself

I was privileged to go see Tyler Perry's Movie "Good Deeds" and WOW! I had a "come to Jesus meeting:! Did I see myself in that movie? Yes Ma'am! Yes Sir! I cried for two hours after the movie! My name is Ms. Deeds! I have spent my ENTIRE life pleasing others and making others happy to the point where I don't know what I like! I revisited some of the decisions of my childhood and saw where I made decisions based on my own desires but on the desires of others; what made others happy or at peace! I didn't press my Mom about the clothes that I wanted to wear because she struggled to buy those things for my sister! Now while that seems selfless and wonderful, I LOST MYSELF! WHO AM I? WHAT AM I DOING HERE? These things affected my self esteem!
I am discovering now what I like! I actually decided what I, emphasis on I, what I wanted to eat after a church service! DO YOU KNOW HOW MAJOR THAT WAS? I have NEVER done that!!!
 I am in a place of self discovery; THE JOURNEY OF ME........

I write....

I was reading a blog post of a very talented writer. She calls herself a Jedi Jesus Girl! As I was reading, I was inspired! She has such a keen insight to this thing called life and I am not sure if she even knows it! Do you know anyone who has such great potential but does not realize it? I am sure we all have encountered such persons! If you have anyone like that, tell them how great they are..... Celebrate them and help them learn to celebrate themselves!

Aesthetically Audbibly Me

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"Aesthetically, Audibly Me" is a book of Spoken Word pieces designed to invoke images and sounds that will point the reader to God.

LET's Get Lifted!

8/8/10 1:06 a.m.

Elevation

I don’t think you’re ready for the truth of this spit

Cover your heart

Cuz it’s about to hit

Them quiet reserved spaces

Them places where you hide

And nobody can surmise

Not even the prophet with the keenest eyes

That you a thief

You’re a closet prostitute

Selling your wares for the biggest compliment

Searching for approval from man

Looking for a hand… out

To applaud

Your efforts to be fake

Not sharing the truth of your being

Because truthfully speaking

You don’t know it

And you show it

Every time you open your mouth

Your words betray you

They say that you

Have no idea

Live beneath your privileges

Not understanding your wealth

Crying about the hand you been dealt

My momma didn’t love me

I was dropped at birth

I wasn’t educated

On these things, you place your worth

Mephiboseth help to declare to the cripple and lame

Their place at the kings table still remains

Help me, Moses, stammering in speech

Declare to the feeble minded, God will speak

Education is not the key

What God speaks will be

He’s declared to the unloved

You are loved

He’s closer to you

Than a hand in a glove

He’s proclaimed to the crippled

In Him you walk again

And to the uneducated

Let this mind be within

That mind of Christ

The sword

The Word

The Knife

Christ is the Life

And the Light of the World

Illumination is the right of Creation

Be enlightened

And enlighten your self

Stop breathing earth fumes

And take this Eternal breath

Come up higher

Retire

The old man

Your place is in heavenly places

And spaces

Where Christ sitteth on the right hand

Come from the bottom

And join Him

Doing It!

8/8/10 12:46 a.m.

Evangelism

The creative juices are flowing

Inside me knowing

That this is an expression of Him

The true gem

I can take no credit

For this gift is not my own

But it came straight from the throne

From the bowels of the throne room of compassion

This limitlessness is matchless

None can compare

O contraire mon frere

Who would dare?

I am but an extension of Him

The true gem

Gem germinates the innate within

His next of kin

Stirring and contemplating

What part of him he will birth

Through poetry

Through dance

Through the arts

His best he imparts

To the unsuspecting

The suspect being

The ones without

Those that don’t shout

But shoot up

Caught in a rut

Wanting to die

Scared to try

To live

To these ones

He gives his gifts and talents

His abilities and possibilities

The drunk on the street

Is a philosophizing beast

Because the gift to reason is on the inside of Him

Inspite of Him

That thugged out pimp

God didn’t skimp

On the gift to sing

Everything is not about His diamond rings and bling bling

There’s an impartation in him

No less than them

Who cry Holy Holy on Sunday morning

These is the highways and hedges folks

That God calls us to invoke

Life in

That prostitute, homosexual, wife beating lunatic

Is your next of kin

GO GET THEM

Do You Really Know Whose I AM?

Take me out of your box

You got me trapped in a box

In your pretty little mind

O f what you think I should be

Not really seeing me

You see the dancer

Prancer

Rhythmic motion romancers

And you think

Hey she’s easy

A slick hook and a nice beat

Will lull this beast to sleep

With this same box

You remember the locks

Or kinky twist I used to wear

So you think

Like my former hair

Style

My pattern is tight

Easy to be straightened

Some grease will increase

The elasticity

So you think you can stretch me to fit

Whatever you deem appropriate

Or you think that just because I hum an occasional tune

Create a skit, using the metaphors of the stars and the moon

Or intellectualize on a theory

Or a conclusion surmise

That you see through my eyes

You think that I am rewritable

Like a hook on song that you just don’t like

Or made into 16 bars to make it tight

To your delight

Or a scene in a play that can be misquoted

Demoted

Or just outright made of no importance

I am not your concept of me

What you perceive me to be

See what you don’t see

Is this simmering eruption

This burning within me

To be the fullness of He

That called me

There is a cataclysmic eruption

Stirring within

Bubbling and gurgling

At the sound of Him

My next of kin

Hearing the ebbing, swelling tide that He is

Bursting to express to men

That He Lives

And He’s coming back again

For His next of Kin

The ones that look like Him

Walking

Talking

Breathing

Sighing Him

I just want to be like Him

To look like Him

To Please Him

To see Him

To Be Him

In Earth

His nature I must birth

I’m pregnant with possibility

Potential potentially potent to

Burst the water of my womb

The contractions consume

Consume my prayers

My meditation

My devotion

My dedication

His voice

My only medication

Will birth this nation

That’s on the inside of me

Please don’t take me to be

What you think you see

But truly see

That I am He

And He is me

Take me out of your box

Recess is OVER!

Stop Playin’

See Imma come at this piece

Like my life is about to cease

Because it is

This is my one shot in life

To effect with the knife

This sword in my throat

Is about to make me choke

Choke to get it out

Choke to spit

Choke to say

I’m sick of this sssh

Don’t say it out loud

It’s a crowd

Don’t you dare say that you sick of status quo

Here comes the big woe

The big woe of church folks

Man I could choke

I mean for real

What are we really doing?

Are we affecting change?

Or are we continuing to maim

Yeah, I get your three point sermon

Hopping and leaping

While the sinners murmur

Looking at us

Saying, Man I know they fake

Cuz that same bite of sin

Together we just ate

Digesting fornication

Sipping on thieving contemplation

Hyprociting the mystery

Corruption, a part of the church’s history

We can’t deny it

We need not even try it

We folks been lying

Since God put the sun in the sky and

Nailed His Son to die and

What for?

Do we really think that Satan ain't gone even the score?

Out of hell, we can’t connive

Or contrive

No more will we be alive

So how bout now

Now we stop playing games

And just do the dang thang

Get on our “J”

And get out of the way

For the revolution is a forward notion

A motion of people pressing in

Investing in

The next of kin

Laying seed in these kids

Living the life amid

This dying generation

This population

Full of aggravation

Needs every congregation

To just stop playing!

Calling All Warriors

The warfare is greater than every against those who will name the name of Jesus! It is time for the warriors to stand up and fight! No more business as usual. It is time to fight in prayer and in application of the WORD of GOD! We must fight to pray. We must fight to study the Word. We must fight for revelation and then application! It is all a fight. R U READY?

Satan, You Just Got Played

You Gets Nothing
Nada, Zilch
Looking for an outlet

A looking post
A place to peek
Into the master’s piece

His piece of me
Which is all of me

But you gets nothing
Not one inch
Not even a lil’ bit

From Your Attempts
I’m exempt
Covered By the blood
Free from Demonic Pimps

You can’t play me Son
I ‘m God’s chosen one

Birthed of Holy DNA
Chromosomes display
The ladder to the Father
Connection to Resurrection
Total Perfection

Eternally Scripted
God depicted

You Gets None, Son

Son of the Morning
Lucifer
Shatan
Whatever your name
You gets none

You can’t faze me
Cause you ain’t raise me
Up out of my sins
Righteously Ignited to Begin
Spittin’ Verbiage
Lips a Liquid Pen
Seeping
Leaking
Anointedly Reaking
Holy Fire
Righteously Attired

To spit your defeat
To verbalize your demise
Son open your eyes
Cause Satan
You just got played.

Total Recall

This level of intimacy supersedes
You know that sho’ nuff loving
You got when you wasn’t
Supposed to be getting it
Hitting it
In the crevices
The secret places of your rendeavous’
Known only by you
And your boo
Or boo’s
Depending on the season
Or current
Of your present emotional state
Whatever needed to be filled
Through lust revealed
Oh don’t be fooled
You was empty
Open
AND
Broken
Searching for a token
You remember that?
Yeah, you remember
See this is something better
You might say out of this world
This passion knows no limit
Or length
No restriction
Or affliction
It doesn’t maim
Or cripple
It doesn’t leave you wondering
Crying and sighing
Sitting by the phone
At home alone
See, he’s a constant lover
It’s not a guessing game with Him
You never have to play games with Him
You don’t have to dress up
Or put on makeup
Never have to shave your legs
Find your best suit
Or shave your head
Your favorite perfume or cologne is not his fragrance
The incense of your praise is what He savours
He searches for you in the depths of your being
The real you, He’s always seeing
He’s not a surface lover
There is no other
The major pursuit
In your heart he roots
Supermodel size
Or hunk physique
Giorgo Armani
Or Donna Karen
He’s not impressed with what you are wearing
The unmade you
Is who He loves best
You know the unshaven
Morning breath you
That awakes to the first day light
No pretense or pretension in sight
Lord, good morning
Yeah that’s this level!
You know what it’s called
Kingdom!
Remember That?

Jeremiah 1:5
5Before I formed you in the belly I knew you; and before you came forth out of the womb I sanctified you, and I ordained you a prophet to the nations.

Psalm 139: 13-18
13For you have possessed my reins: you have covered me in my mother's womb. 14I will praise you; for I am fearfully and wonderfully made: marvelous are your works; and that my soul knows right well. 15My substance was not hid from you, when I was made in secret, and curiously worked in the lowest parts of the earth. 16Your eyes did see my substance, yet being imperfect; and in your book all my members were written, which in continuance were fashioned, when as yet there was none of them. 17How precious also are your thoughts to me, O God! how great is the sum of them! 18If I should count them, they are more in number than the sand: when I awake, I am still with you.

Total Recall!

Verbal Revolution

My phraseology is not an apology
But an admittance
That I am His
And He is Mine

Although politically incorrect
I must interject
JESUS IS THE KING

This is a Verbal Revolution
Spouting Creations Solution
Interrupting Satanic Pollution
Introducing................................

Verbal Revolution

Can you get with this?
'Cause you can't stop this

One WORD only
And the worlds were formed
One WORD only
Interrupting the norm

It took a WORD to create it
It took a WORD to devastate it

It will take a WORD to change
It will take a WORD to rearrange it
Speak a WORD only
Verbal Testimony

Let's start a revolution
Speak the solution

What's the WORD?

The WORD was made flesh and dwelt among us. And we beheld His Glory. The only begotten of the Father full of grace and truth. (John 1:14)

My phraseology is not an apology
But and admittance
That I am His

Reflections

Introspectively Speaking

It's a new year and new season to turn up the volume. It's time to speak louder about this thing called life. Reflection is necessary for introspection. Can't look within until you look back. This is the year to look back at all your junk, and mess, and straighten it so it won't continue to muffle the sounds of freedom.

Say What?

In honor of Black History Month

Little known black history
A black man was responsible for eternity
Carrying on his shoulders destiny
Simon the Cyrene
Carrying the cross of you and me
Helping Christ to bear the burden
While up the hill to Golgotha journeying
From Cyrenaica, North Africa
You ain’t know
Black Man representing
For Sho’
Say What?